Traveled to North and South Carolina this weekend to go to a recruitment fair at a school district in Chester, SC. It was a good weekend and I learned some good things about the area.
I have lived 52 years as of today. Amazing to think of it that way.
I am a very fortunate woman. I missed my husband, I want to be around him (most of the time). We know enough not to spend all our time together… that helps!
The girls I was privileged to give birth to have grown into extraordinary women. Each with their own beautifully unique personalities and strengths- they are on as beautiful on the inside as they are on the outside, seriously! They are a force to be reckoned with-they triple dip of great things…kind, beautiful and smart!
Blessings from me to the world and gratitude for this amazing life.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Pondering life and relationships
Interesting how one bumps into, or encounters experiences in life...
Spent yesterday with Doug. We shopped for a wedding gift for a wedding we attended later in the day. Went straight to Pottery Barn where the couple had registered, checked out their registry, and bought a gift. A Wedding allows for reflection. This couple, young and happy but facing illness and struggling through the difficult maze that is life just like we all must.
More and more an understanding or accepting of what normal, "healthy" relationships are, has become a part of my consciencious. Given the opportunity to observe and think about my own relationship with Doug, my daughters, and others: Everyone has shit and baggage and crap to deal with. It is hard, and you need to work on it. Working on it is defined as...not sweeping the stuff you don't want to face under the rug. Coming clean on the stuff you are not proud of having done and living openly in times of crisis. Not easy!
How does this fit into the journey of weight loss, each of the things I've said about people can be applied, albeit loosely, to relationships with food.
I have only love for you.
Spent yesterday with Doug. We shopped for a wedding gift for a wedding we attended later in the day. Went straight to Pottery Barn where the couple had registered, checked out their registry, and bought a gift. A Wedding allows for reflection. This couple, young and happy but facing illness and struggling through the difficult maze that is life just like we all must.
More and more an understanding or accepting of what normal, "healthy" relationships are, has become a part of my consciencious. Given the opportunity to observe and think about my own relationship with Doug, my daughters, and others: Everyone has shit and baggage and crap to deal with. It is hard, and you need to work on it. Working on it is defined as...not sweeping the stuff you don't want to face under the rug. Coming clean on the stuff you are not proud of having done and living openly in times of crisis. Not easy!
How does this fit into the journey of weight loss, each of the things I've said about people can be applied, albeit loosely, to relationships with food.
I have only love for you.
Friday, April 18, 2014
Another New Day
The title of this post basically wrote itself. I read it now and I wonder why that poured out so easily. I think that is rather sad and profound and lame and simple.
Making weight watchers work is simple and extremely hard at the same time. Anything that is worth having/achieving is worth the hard work.
Reading some of the past "weight watcher's" weekly I came across some profound (to me) words.
"Pride Awaits" this is my reminder when "reaching" for a poor choice of food. I want to feel
proud of my choices".
Here is a little reminder of what poor choices can "taste" like… "mmmm, these feelings are delicious"
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
baby steps, baby steps, baby steps will bring me to where I need to get.
I have decided to give my negative voice a name. I am calling it Sally. Sally talks way too much, too much of the time. I'll let you know when Sally is around. However, I hope Sally decides to shut up!
That's all for today!!!
Making weight watchers work is simple and extremely hard at the same time. Anything that is worth having/achieving is worth the hard work.
Reading some of the past "weight watcher's" weekly I came across some profound (to me) words.
"Pride Awaits" this is my reminder when "reaching" for a poor choice of food. I want to feel
proud of my choices".
Here is a little reminder of what poor choices can "taste" like… "mmmm, these feelings are delicious"
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
baby steps, baby steps, baby steps will bring me to where I need to get.
I have decided to give my negative voice a name. I am calling it Sally. Sally talks way too much, too much of the time. I'll let you know when Sally is around. However, I hope Sally decides to shut up!
That's all for today!!!
Thursday, April 17, 2014
April 17, 2014 Thursday
Wednesday is my regular weigh in day at Weight Watchers. I made some excuse and did not go last night. I've been un-determined and un-motivated about sticking to the program. As a result, my weight loss has been... s l o w!
I reactivated my membership in February 2014, I've lost 9 pounds and gained 3… so I've lost 6 pounds in 2 months…Not exactly a stellar performance.
The question is why? Why have I joined this program only to: not faithfully commit to working it?
I have not been able to answer that - yet. More than likely, I am in denial about something, or avoiding something or I'm just so "addicted" to food that I talk myself into eating "just one more", "this will be the last one"and I certainly tell myself that "tomorrow will be better". I also make promises to myself that I'll track my food, I promise myself that I'll eat only food that will produce better results.
What I hope, what I intend; will be a re-focusing of my efforts is this blog. I remember hearing about someone else's journey-and denial about weight loss. She finally realized, that she was only lying and cheating herself.
So let me say it here...
Wednesday is my regular weigh in day at Weight Watchers. I made some excuse and did not go last night. I've been un-determined and un-motivated about sticking to the program. As a result, my weight loss has been... s l o w!
I reactivated my membership in February 2014, I've lost 9 pounds and gained 3… so I've lost 6 pounds in 2 months…Not exactly a stellar performance.
The question is why? Why have I joined this program only to: not faithfully commit to working it?
I have not been able to answer that - yet. More than likely, I am in denial about something, or avoiding something or I'm just so "addicted" to food that I talk myself into eating "just one more", "this will be the last one"and I certainly tell myself that "tomorrow will be better". I also make promises to myself that I'll track my food, I promise myself that I'll eat only food that will produce better results.
What I hope, what I intend; will be a re-focusing of my efforts is this blog. I remember hearing about someone else's journey-and denial about weight loss. She finally realized, that she was only lying and cheating herself.
So let me say it here...
I am lying to myself
I am cheating only myself
Now, it is time to switch my attitude and direction. I realize I won't do this perfectly, but I commit to this, there will be no lies here.
Expect good, expect messy, expect silly, expect flaws but I intend to make this happen for myself!
Here I go! Honestly!!
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